Trey Vaz

Rema'D

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Rema'D To the Game

Autobiography

   My name is Trey Vaz A.K.A Rema'D. I was raised in Willimantic and lived there until I was three years old. I was taken from my mother at that time due to her drug abuse.
   I went to live with my father in New London. He and I lived by ourselves in an apartment for nine years. Every other weekend and for two weeks in the summer my mother had visitation rights.
   When I was twelve horror struck when the inevitable happened! My father who had AIDS had become very ill with pneumonia. He finally went to the hospital unwillingly and was never the same. Two days from death, doctors doubted his survival. But he pulled through. He was sent to a convalescent home and I was sent to live with my mother. Knowing that I had not escaped the tornado of destruction known as AIDS because my mother also had this deadly virus. Not only was I watching my father die from this disease, but was watching my mother go through the daily struggle, and it would only get worse.
   So I started to act out in school and headed toward the street life. I fought anybody who disrespected me. In seventh grade I fought four kids in one month, two of them one after the other. Then in eighth grade I fought two people at the same time and then two more throughout the year. I'm telling you I was crazy! I cursed at teachers, administrators, had security chasing me everywhere and purposely did the opposite of what they told me. Everyday it was a "Trey day."
   My father passed away on January 10th, 2009, which made me worse than I had ever been because now I really did not care about anything except me. When I graduated Middle School it was only out of pity. Otherwise I would have stayed back because I failed everything. In High School I ended up in Ms. Frazier's class and she knew I was coming. They told her that there was a talented rapper/poet coming to her school. I came to The Young Poets and that has really helped me stay on track. If it wasn't for The Young Poets I would probably still be running the streets, skipping school and fighting anybody who disrespected me.
   It's a struggle everyday to not regress into my old ways, especially living in Willimantic when my mom is only getting worse. Somehow I have to squint to see that tiny glimmer of light at the end of this tunnel, but The Young Poets sometimes can be my glasses. Of course my family helps outside of school and without this support who knows.
   I wish to follow my dream and become a rapper. Hopefully that light at the end of the tunnel is the spotlight, and fans are waiting. If that happens then I guess all the struggles, pain, and death was worth it after all.

Rema'D to the Game

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Rema'D to the game they sendin' me to the fame

The remedy to the lames so enemy of the lames

Out to fix the rap game out to get a fat chain

Out to get the easy money I ain't selling cocaine

Dr. Carter did the surgery disease came back

Same lack of realness yo how do we heal it

Been thinking so long late nights I feel sick

Hip-Hop don't feel the same how do you not feel it

Out to get the spotlight even if I steal it

Cause right now the world is in the palm of my hand

I'm smart and I'm starting to show it so people know it

Grades going up plus I use rhythm to be a poet

I'm tryin' to stay positive continue down the right path

Like I've been doing and a lot of people like that

And for those who don't I don't even care save it

Words don't hurt it hurts more when I get my hair braided

They would rather I be that careless kid that I used to be

If I was then I'd be running the streets until my eulogy

So why not change up and pick my grades up

But everyday I'm reminded moms sick AIDS SUCKS!

Also because my dad died from it

With a confused mind swollen face and bloated stomach

Thirteen my dad was inside the casket walls

The man that raised me and taught me to play basketball

One of the last times he saw me I had a black eye from fighting

When he died one thing that really helped me was writing

Rema'D the solution for the lamest of the lamest

Hopefully one day that solution will make me famous

Come compete against me you just might go home

No one does it like me on this mic-ro-phone

When dreams seems out of reach Rema'D rebounds

How many times do I do that before Rema'D be found

That is the question

Explosion Of Emotion

I'M VERY ANGRY SO I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND

IF I SHOUT LOUDLY TO EXPRESS MY MIND

CAUSE LATELY I FIND THAT I STAY LOST

CAN'T FIND THE WAY IM BLIND

TRY TO DO BETTER BUT I CAN'T GET SIGNED

IM BEHIND LIKE REWIND LIFE GOT SCOLIOSIS

CAUSE MY LIFE CROOKED LIKE A SPINE THAT CAN'T ALIGN

NO DOUGH SO BROKE MOM'S SICK NO HOPE

CAN'T COPE but still no coke NOPE

I'm clean like soap need a priest NEED A POPE

I NEED A DAD TOO BAD SO YOU KNOW WHY IM MAD

WHY IM WRITING WITH A PEN AND PAD LOST LIKE A NOMAD

BAD LIKE MICHAEL JACKSON SMART LIKE A GRAD

LIFE LIKE A MOVIE LIKE ANGELINA AND BRAD

I feel better with a chick so I bag like Glad

Not to brag I'm just sayin' the truth I'm a youth

So I need a girl in my world although still

Heart dies slow make me an animal like road kill

Heart still cold every month like a car bill

SO REMA'D GO HARD AND I'M GONNA GO TILL

LIFE STOP THE FIGHTS STOP LIGHTS STOP PAIN STOP

CAUSE EVERYDAY IT RAINS ON ME CALL IT PAIN RAIN DROPS

IM FIRED UP DON'T TOUCH ME THE FLAME HOT

HEATED MIGHT COME WITH MORE VELOCITY THAN A TRAIN GOT

AND I DO THIS WHY IM SHOUTING THIS AN EXPLOSION OF EMOTION

VERBALLY GIVING MORE FOWL SHOTS THAN AN NBA GAME GOT

IM MY FATHERS RISING SON LIKE THE CITY OF BANGKOK

BUT HE ISN'T HERE TO SEE IT HE'S DECEASED

FATHER AND MY UNCLE FLYING IN THE SAME FLOCK

DO I WANNA WRITE OR NOT WRITERS BLOCK BRAIN LOCKED

I WANT THE FAME I, WANT THE DIAMOND CHAIN ROCKS

HONESTLY IM OUT FOR THE DOUGH I WANNA GAIN LOTS

of money heart pumping blood till my veins pop

plus I want to be heard so I kill two birds in the same shot

FRUSTRATION COMING FASTER ACCELERATION

CAUSE IM BROKE AS A JOKE AND NO ONE SAYS I AIN'T HOT

SO COULDN'T I GET SIGNED I should be in the booth

So I don't lose passion I JUST HAVE TO REMAIN HOT

You feel me? Do ya'll even agree with me

Do you see in me what everyone else see in me

See my life see the fighter see the Bruce Lee in me

In some ways full of life cause you'll never find E in me

MY LIFE IS A HURRICANE YOU SEE THE DEBRIS IN ME

I DON'T PLAY NO WEE IN ME NOT FRUITY NO KIWI IN ME

SHOUTING FROM AGGRESSION I HOPE I LEAVE AN IMPRESSION

SO I COULD SAY YA'LL ARE PEOPLE THAT BELIEVED IN ME

Feel A Connection

(Verse 1)

Fresh white T blue jeans white Nike's "ewweee"

This girl like me I like her she might be my wifee to be

She think I'm a cheater and a dog like Ike T who me?

I treat 'em right like the right knee and keep it cool like ice-t

A lot of people don't like me but too soft to fight me

So don't listen to he say she say what might not and might be

I know that your ex was a pig like swine flu

But there's still time to find a man you can combine to

You still like homeboy ma don't let love blind you

I bring honesty to the phrase "no one can love like I do'

From the chocolate that I buy you to the money I supply you

Never lie to you I want to be the one you tie to

Be who you confide in when me and you are ridin'

You the wifee not the wife till I say bring the bride in

Your beautiful complexion results in this affection

I'm just tryin' to be honest and say I Feel A Connection

(Chorus 2x)

I'm feelin' like we got a connection do you feel the same

Heart beating faster more blood just reveal the veins

You got that swagger mami you type fierce

Stop frontin' and get with this man this man right here

(Verse 2)

I can't control my eyes I stare at you too fine to blink

I'm gonna' paint a picture ma tell me what you think

Me and you together stuck like glue forever

As we get closer there's no limit for what we do together

Whether it's rainy or sunny we walking hand in hand through the weather

I ain't a monk but I pray for her telling Buddha bless her

Whatever religion it's the same but just cause I'm preyin' here

Don't mean I'm obsessed don't misunderstand what I'm sayin' here

I'm just sayin' you lookin' type right in them jeans

I got dreams to be rich you see I'm a MC

So if you were to get with me girls would show envy

Cause they with a drop out and either way i'ma get green

Rappin' or in an office relaxin' I'm gettin' guop

Ambitious with Hip-Hop no signs of gettin' stopped

I want to stand by you as the man by you

Don't let them haters take you down like quicksand tries to

(Chorus 2x)

(Verse 3)

You a good girl and I'm a good boyfriend

These other guys tryin' fake like life sized toy men

Push 'em they fall over they're snakes they're all cobras

But girl I have ambition to be known all over

The world I'm actually gonna be somethin'

When I'm paper touchin' they'll be in the street hustlin'

In the past you thought that would be me but now you see me

Makin CD's if I told my boy I don't think he would believe me

You was mean we was enemies you didn't like me

Who would know later in life in position for wifee

It's strange matter fact it's insane in the membrane

But I'm scared to fall in love cause I'm scared to be in pain

I could be on the love train love could be in range

Or maybe I'm going crazy maybe I never been sane

If not then come with me and see my world

To make a whole song short will you be my girl?